uh. helped out my mum with the household chores today, and im pretty tired now. (: feeling so uber free these days, in fact the whole month. i did nothing and a month flew by!

well, recalling back to ytd when i was out with him and what we talked about and the short chat i had with joyce online rather wake me up from some things in life. he asked me something really really i didn't thought of it. is dance what i really want? or rather just a 3min fever? because i have this sudden thought of learning international ballroom dance because i've finally found someone who wanna learn that too! well, this was wad i really want to learn since young. but now isnt that too late? and now is this like a 3min fever only and all the fees i have to pay to learn that would all go down to drain? so that was the reason why im going to say, i quit. quit having thoughts of learning it alrdy bah besides my mum wouldn't allow it! mans, im afraid that i'll regret luh. contradiction.

very well, i've seen my "her desires" on my blog. wth. it's so like long? is like will people change as they grow up? become more and more materialistic? im so afraid that after entering poly, i'll change. furthermore, im alrdy have so many wants on my list. haha. freaking emo here. (x

nonetheless, these days im feeling real lucky. i've come to realise that my parents did really give me alot alot of freedom and alot of care and concern. prehaps, my feelings toward him and his appearance in my life made me realise these. im 17 in age but in mind im sooo much freaking younger. time to be contented and learn to save.

wth. freaking emo and lame post but im seriously thinking now. perhaps, i just got so much time now. worst of all, the posting of schools reveals next coming tues. therefore, the more i shld start thinking. x)